My Aunt Kim came up with a really cool idea for journaling–writing about a different topic each day. ;) I wasn’t even planning on doing this, but my thoughts tonight were on music, and it fit with her description of Monday! :)
My life has gotten super crazy in the past week as far as school goes, and I have realized how little time I have to practice violin. Over the past 2 1/2 years of being in college, I have really been drawn to general elementary teaching rather than music…but I still have a place in my heart for music.
It’s been a rough transition off and on this year since I was so involved with music here at UNC for 2 years. With my minor, I am qualified to teach music, but I don’t know if that’s what I want to do. It still hits me every now and then, and I’m sad because I don’t know how music will play into my future.
My main concern lately is my lack of practice time. I get worried that eventually I will lose everything I’ve worked towards in college. This semester it has been especially hard to find time to practice. I haven’t touched my violin since my lesson last week, and I feel like I’m wasting money because I will probably only get one (or maybe two) days of practicing in.
It’s frustrating to me because I WANT to practice and I want to still be able to play well. I know that this is a concern for almost all musicians who want to be teachers. Eventually, teaching does take over practicing, and you can’t learn as much. I’m just feeling these things right now since I’ve come to a place where music cannot have priority over my classes like I’ve made it for pretty much all of college.
I know this is kind of a depressing entry for my Musical Monday, but these are my thoughts about music lately.