Christmas in the Eyes of a Cat

 Christmas! A time filled with lights, dangling toys, music, and coziness!

01The Christmas tree makes the perfect hiding spot.

02And there are toys dangling everywhere so that I can jump up and snatch them down to play with.

03I love all the extra snuggle time with my human since she has a break from work.

04Ahhh…

05Time to wrap the presents!

06Wrapping gifts is exhausting! Naptime?

07I have to look extra pretty to visit the relatives in Denver.

08Traveling is fun!

09I have more humans to play with!

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Wait for it…11Gotcha!

12It’s starting to snow outside!

13There are piles of gifts under the tree–now I can really hide!

14Some of the gifts were for me–new shiny and dangling toys!

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16I love listening to all the beautiful Christmas music, too.

12.5But this is what Christmas is all about? A Savior is born!

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Response: Faith or Fear?

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything; tell God your needs, and don’t forget to thank him for his answers. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:6-7 TLB)

I am learning to practice faith instead of fear. Both are responses to our circumstances. When facing large or small situations in life, we can delve into a habit of fear and anxiety, OR we can turn to the Lord in dependent trust. I want to be a woman whose “default” response is to trust in the Lord–no matter what. So I have begun to practice faith in the “small things” that I face daily.

School was tough today. It was the first day back after our week off for Thanksgiving. Having gone to bed late last night, I had trouble getting up early. I wasn’t motivated to get back into the routine of teaching, and I was tired. I enjoyed my class but just felt “off” all day. Toward the end of the day, my principal called me from his office to inform me that I might not get paid for the sick day that I took the day before break because it’s a “black-out day” (the day before a long break), and I don’t have a doctor’s note that I was sick.

My heart wanted to be fearful or anxious. I struggled with taking a sick day to begin with because I hold myself to a high standard with my health. I don’t want to be seen as “weak” because I had to stay home from school. But I was not feeling well all that week and needed the day off. Even if the school district chooses not to pay me for that day, I did what was necessary, and God will take care of me. He is in control of the timing and the details.

I also sometimes feel like I’m not teaching things “right” this year because of all the new Common Core that is coming into education. There’s a lot of pressure to teach to Common Core and raise the standards…only I don’t know what that all looks like. It can be discouraging, and today I came home feeling overwhelmed and as if the day was a pointless failure.

Instead of giving in to worry and discouragement though, I started thinking about what fearing the Lord in this situation would look like–instead of fearing my principal or school district or others who may be evaluating me. What does the Lord expect of me? Did I meet His goals today? He doesn’t expect me to be a perfect teacher. Or to teach the “right” way. Or to have everything worked out. God expects me to love my students with His love, and therefore glorify Him. Did I do that today?

My students were delighted to see me and give me hugs after our long week apart. I took the time to listen to what they did over break and how they were feeling today. I laughed with them and had fun with them while they were learning. I stayed after school with a poverty-stricken student to share a bag of clothes that was donated for her–away from the prying eyes of the students who don’t struggle in the ways she does. Upon thinking about this, I realized that the day wasn’t so bad after all.

God is at work always. He is in control of all the details so that I don’t have to be. He knows what I need and cares deeply for me. And He is always right with me through everything.

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Be Patient in Suffering…for God has a Purpose!

“As an example of suffering and patience, brothers, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. Behold, we consider those blessed who remained steadfast. You have heard of the steadfastness of Job, and you have seen the purpose of the Lord, how the Lord is compassionate and merciful.” -James 5:10-11

 

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Strangely Dim

Anxiety creeps into my life when I least expect it. My fears have been filling my thoughts lately instead of the comforting and secure truths of God’s Word.

As a Christian living in the world, life is a battle. If you try to coast along in neutral, you will be swayed by every circumstance that comes. That is why our lives must be consistently rooted and grounded in God and His Word.

I just love the message of Francesca Battistelli’s song, “Strangely Dim.” God’s Word is truth and teaches me who my God is and where my security lies. I want to so saturate my heart in God’s Word that everything else grows “strangely dim.”

When I fix my eyes on all that You are
Then every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
All my worries fade
And fall to the ground
Cause when I seek Your face
And don’t look around
Any place I’m in
Grows strangely dim

I don’t know, I don’t know
What tomorrow may hold
But I know, but I know
That You’re holding it all
So no matter what may come

I’m gonna fix my eyes on all that You are
‘Til every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
Let all my worries fade
And fall to the ground
I’m gonna seek Your face
And not look around
Til the place I’m in
Grows strangely, strangely, strangely dim.

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Is God Absent from our Public Schools?

Over the past several decades, public education has been uprooted from its biblical beginnings. Prayer was removed, conversations about God are taboo, and Bibles are seen as a threat. One woman who interviewed for a job at my school was turned down simply because her only experience was in a private Christian school, and the principal and teachers were afraid she would bring God into her classroom. There must be separation of church and state, they say. My first year of teaching 5th grade I was questioned because I hung a student’s drawing of a Bible on my wall. I was pulled aside by the principal months later during our “Fairy Tales on Trial” unit, and he made it very clear that there would be NO swearing on the Bible during our classroom trial. These things make public schools somewhat oppressive to Christian teachers who want to make an eternal difference in their students’ lives.

Right now there is great controversy over Common Core, which has arrived to dominate our system. We are encouraged to abandon some very good parts of our teaching because “it’s not part of Common Core.” And we need to embrace the new ways of teaching. It’s a complete shift in education. Christians, especially, seem quite upset with the implementation of Common Core. Being right in the middle of it myself, I have been keeping my eyes and ears open for anything that goes against the Bible and what I believe.

A few weeks ago, we just began teaching from the Engage New York Language Arts curriculum. It was our choice, though strongly encouraged by higher authority. The strategies of teaching students to read carefully does not seem bad at all. It’s the content that is controversial. For example, the first text we are digging into is the Universal Declaration of Human Rights (UDHR), which is a document created by the United Nations and adopted by our country in 1948 after World War II. The difference between this document and our country’s Declaration of Independence: any hint of God has been removed. That really does not surprise me. I’m at a public school and do not expect to be allowed to explicitly teach about God. That does not mean He doesn’t influence my actions and the impact I can have on my students.

I did some research to find out the details about this newer document we were studying compared to our original Declaration of Independence. The Declaration of Independence begins, “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.” The key words here are created and by their Creator, as these words are not part of the UDHR. Instead, Article 1 of the UDHR states, “All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights. They are endowed with reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood.” Using the word born takes away the fact that we are created and could imply that life begins at birth and not conception. In addition, some of the questions further into the unit encourage discussion about the definition of marriage and other rights we should have. This is big stuff. The controversies of our nation are entering our elementary schools. My initial reaction was fear in having to teach this …until I remembered that God is in control of this, and He is on my side.

Interestingly, God made Himself very present in my classroom while were studying this first article of the UDHR. We had a discussion about the words endowed and conscience, since many students stumbled over them while reading. We came to the conclusion that all human beings are given the ability to determine what is right and wrong. Therefore, I was able to teach the biblical principle found in Romans 2:14-15 which says, “Indeed, when Gentiles, who do not have the law, do by nature things required by the law, they are a law for themselves, even though they do not have the law. They show that the requirements of the law are written on their hearts, their consciences also bearing witness, and their thoughts sometimes accusing them and at other times even defending them.”

After understanding the meaning of Article 1, we drew a picture to help us remember it. One of my students shared, “I think we should draw a cross for freedom!” Another student added, “Yes! A cross because Jesus died on the cross for our freedom.” It just made me smile. Here I was teaching a document that tried to remove God, but He was coming right back into the conversation anyway.

I am not against speaking out against things like this when necessary, but we need not fear. When God’s people are persecuted, He is right by their side. His purposes will be fulfilled despite the “power” of man that tries to rule over Him. We already know that God will win in the end. He is jealous for His glory and is continuing to grow up people for Himself in the midst of the evil that is surrounding us.

Is God absent from our public schools? I can confidently answer, “NO!” He is as present as ever, and His work isn’t finished yet.

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Content with Weaknesses

How do you deal with your weaknesses? The biblical character, Jacob, struggled with wanting to trust in his own cleverness instead of depending on God. But God, in His great mercy and grace, weaned Jacob away from dependence on himself. Toward the end of Jacob’s life, God wrestled with him and permanently lamed him. It was a perpetual reminder of his spiritual weakness. Just as he needed to lean on a stick for the rest of his life, Jacob needed to lean on the Lord.

Wow! What a different perspective of weakness. I don’t like my weaknesses. In fact, I am constantly striving to get rid of them so that I can live my life in my own strength. My weaknesses are a hindrance to what I want my life to look like. But God designed my weaknesses to help me lean on Him. Instead of fighting against my weaknesses, what if I am content with them because I know that the Lord’s strength is greater than my own? What freedom I would find, and what glory God would receive! God is worthy of my trust.

“I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

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What Matters

There’s so much pressure put on teachers these days. CSAP and TCAP are a thing of the past, yet the scores still impact us as teachers. The PARCC test is now looming over everyone’s heads and there is pressure to “teach to the test”–and only to the test, because that’s what’s important. Senate Bill 191 is now officially in place, which means that teachers are “graded” according to a lengthy rubric. Half of the grade is from the teacher’s own performance. The other half? It comes from how the students perform. So…in a sense, your job is in the hands of your students.

With all this pressure, it’s easy to become discouraged and feel as if you aren’t a good teacher at all. But then there are the kids. The things they say and do make you realize that it’s not only about test scores and performance. It’s about life and learning. The first week of school was filled with many memorable moments in between all the academics.

–Many of my 5th graders were lined up to give me hugs at the end of the first day.

–One student declared, “Even though it’s only the first day, I can already tell you’re going to be a great teacher!”

–My boys think their teacher is “awesome!” …simply because I can touch my tongue to my nose.

–At the end of the second day when I was feeling a bit overwhelmed by everything, one of my sweet girls came up to me and said, “Miss Agee, thank you for a great day today.”

–After I counted to 10 in French, one boy shouted out, “Teach us!” So we paused for a French counting lesson.

–On Thursday morning, one student brought me a beautiful flower–just because.

photo (1)–I had a conversation with one of my tough behavior kids (and his mom) about him being a leader for our class. I told him how impressed I am with his hard work already, but encouraged him to think about his behavior because the other kids look to him and follow what he is doing. He seems to misbehave because he’s searching for attention. The next day, I discovered that he was bragging “on and on and on” to his best friend about how he loves Miss Agee and how she loves him back, too! And so far, his behavior has improved…

–We have a monolingual Spanish speaker in 5th grade. Yesterday she was explaining something to me in Spanish. Even though I don’t speak Spanish, I recognized some words and got the gist of what she was saying because of context. I responded to her in English, and a nearby student said with amazement, “Miss Agee, YOU KNOW SPANISH??!!”

–I always give a Miss Agee Trivia quiz at the beginning of the year: 10 statements about me that are True or False. Then I go through the answers and show the class pictures to tell them about myself. Afterwards, I handed each student an index card and had them create their own trivia quiz and we took turns guessing True or False for their statements. One girl stood up and read her statement, “Natalie loves being in Miss Agee’s class.” TRUE.

–I’m teaching some strategies for peace-making in my classroom this year. We examined an illustration that showed the different ways to respond to conflict, and we had a good discussion about how hard it can be to make the right choices when you disagree with someone.

–For our read-aloud time, we came up with 5 qualities of a good listener so that everyone knows what is expected when sitting in the reading corner. Everyday we reviewed the expectations, and everyday the same student raised her hand to ask if it is also ok to close your eyes if you want to picture the story in your head (since good listeners should have their eyes on the speaker). Of course that is fine, too. I guess she had to make sure the expectations haven’t changed. ;)

–Since it was raining, we had indoor recess yesterday. The kids loved playing with the board games and puzzles from the game cupboard. And I just sat and played checkers with one of the boys while it rained and thundered outside.

–Even the boys can be such sweethearts. At the end of our first Friday, I received a hug from one of my students before he left for the weekend.

After reflecting on the week, I’ve realized that my goal in teaching is not to get my students to score high on a performance test. I value academics just as much as any teacher, and I do consider the test when I prepare lesson to teach. But real life is more important. The kids aren’t concerned about the dark cloud of testing and educational standards that looms over the school system. They care about the little things. And if my aim is to prepare my students for their real lives, then they will also perform well on a test.

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